Why blog

The blogging trend seems to be slowing down, don't you think?  My own motivation has dwindled.  I keep a private blog for Noah's birth family and so that has also been a good journal for his life and our family.  But, I wanted to keep this public blog for the sake of adoption.  Mostly, so that any potential birthmom's could get a little better insight into our lives.  I think when we were hoping to adopt the first time, it was also a way for me to feel like I was being proactive in our trying to start our family.  It kept me feeling like I could do something to help.

I have been feeling those pains for another baby lately.  When we got approved again, about a year ago, I was in no hurry for another baby.  In my mind, it was the perfect time to be "hoping to adopt", when we weren't dying for another one just yet.  I thought that hopefully we'd get another baby before I felt that pain in my heart for another one.  And, actually, I couldn't even really imagine what that might feel like because our family was just the way it should be at that moment.  I couldn't imagine feeling baby hungry. 

Our lives are full of joy with Noah and if we didn't get the chance to be parents to any other children, I would truely be content and grateful that we have the chance to be his parents.  But, for now, I don't think that is the case.  I do think that we'll have more children and I feel a lot more patient and trusting in the process this time around.  I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for our family and He knows when the time is right.  And, even though that ache in my heart for a new little bundle hurts, doesn't that make it all the more joyous when it finally happens?

Anyway...back to this blog, so I've just not been feeling motivated to blog here that much lately.  But, then I read a post on a blog that I read by an adoptive mom.  It's just her regular, family blog.  She occasionally posts about adoption and infertility, but mostly just her adorable little family.  And, I was reminded, reading her post, at how much blogs like hers have influenced and helped me when we were trying to figure out adoption and how to start our family.  Most of these blogs, I don't even know the people personally and have never commented on their blog.  They wouldn't even know that I was reading or that it had made any difference in my life.  I should probably comment to let them know that it has.  Because, sometimes hearing about adoption, openness, and other things feel different when you can see that it actually works and leads to wonderful little families.  It can really help people's point of views, at least it really helped me.  So, my conclusion was that I will keep this blog, at least for now.  Hopefully, it does help birth parents get to know us better and maybe it will help someone understand adoption better too along the way.